PMS mode: pessimism

everyone is probably going "shit, school's starting tomorrow" which is undeniably true. which also means my hell packed crazy schedule is commencing tomorrow as well.

it's weird to think how different and how similar things are gonna be like. especially in friendship, the environment and all the kinds of society.

i'm greatful to know that sometimes when i fall down or get bashed in the face, there are still friends who would catch me and aid. sometimes, an honest confession can hurt like crap but it may bring the best outcome. i am a complicated person and so are my friends. we take to much into consideration which sometimes leads to a situation whereby we forget to remember the importance of each other by forbidding the unnecessary respect. i'm not sure how to change but i swear i will do better only if all of you would MOVE together with me. i doubt any of you are reading this but do know that I LOVE all my best friends. i could NEVER NEVER EVER live without any of you as long as i breathe.


i want to touch, but when i try to touch, it gets broken.
maybe it's best i keep it away.
i don't think i can ever be in love.
i can't even take a minor broken heart.
am i fragile?

life is hard, and the thought of living in simplicity is where all the climb and fall occurs.

hell i am not ready to face all these again.

2010# edited

and so I had fun, came back at four, had the most hideous supper of the year, and feel asleep. I hated the flashers(hahahaa, stupid idiots) but I loved the company ♥ (thank you all:D)

as promised and sorry for the delay, here are some of the photos..

Photographer: Ong Yoong Jian ♥♥♥♥♥♥
Venue: The Maple, Sentul
How was it: The Bomb
Models: WU SHIN YEN, FELICIA SOO, MELODY TANG, ME!

a best friend's promise :)

roar

loved the pool

♥

false imitation. hahaha

he's the man!

yup, that's basically it.
more on facebook.
or i'll upload by random weekly when school reopens(effective on 4th of Jan),
which also means I'll only blog on every Saturday noon.
This happens because it is my new principle that I have to follow and be faithful to:

my 2010 RESOLUTIONS

end all co-cu by June.
exercise thrice a week.
study consistently everyday.
no more performing/practises.
neater work and better results.
5 outings till SPM flag stops waving.
no more staying back in school so often.
PERFECT CV FOR THE PERFECT SCHOLARSHIP.
FOCUS on what is NEEDED, WANTED AND MUST.
EAT small portions PER FOUR HOURS to avoid cravings, binging and starvation (7am-8pm)
STRAIGHT A'S FOR SPM!

2009 was not desired as I had wished.
But I must say,
it was a year where i opened my eyes and learnt what pre-major life really is.
I didn't pull it through well.

But 2010 is gonna change.
Just the number twenty ten gives a positive vision.
I trust my instincts.

Things come and go,
One door closes, another opens,
May 2010 be filled with laughter, determination and strong faith,
And God bless my family and fellow mates.

I thank you my friends, teachers and family members who made every single day of mine different in every way. It made me stronger person and most importantly, made me realize who I really am.
Despite the hardships, the friendship and the wildness of somethings that happened put no words beyond magnificent.
I truly am blessed.

“Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right and fight right.”- Oprah Winfrey

♥

P/s: nikii, jean, sun, hash, anisa, coxx and you you...
I'll bring you guys here some other time.
You would not wanna miss it.
xoxo

if you meet me halfway

HAHAHAHAAA.

here's a sneak peak of what the awesome Canon EOS 5D Mark II and the superbly cute and blur photographer who turned just 15 years old today made our day.
it happened last Tuesday.
Somewhere in Sentul.
eager?
wait till the coming thursday night.
or visit Syen's facebook first :)

dance revolution?

life.. is to be enjoyed with your loved ones.
i loove my bro n sis-in-law(SIL). they are awesome :)

♥

in these past few days, i had the best time of my life.
perhaps, if that's what i think..
on another hand, i had offended 2 people with an intention mistakenly taken otherwise.
i am really sorry about what i did to the both of you.
i know i was wrong for doing it without your consent.
but do know that my intention meant no harm.
i am okay.
i hope you 2 are.
forgive me pls?

Christmas spell

#a word froom Jean-"persevere..."
i'd say.. for everything.
haha

Damn i gotta work today.
But before that I just wanna send my love & Christmas blessings to a few clans:
The Muhibahs(click, comment and check us out. ahahaha)
The Disobedience(hot hot spicey pictures are coming up:) FDMS)
The crazy BSMers[F1-ex form 5s]
The Not so Racist Group[ Sunshine, Coxx, Niki, Jean, Joyce & some other boys]
The Smart People Group[Manoj, Hong Ling,Farhi, Abdullah, Samantha etc.]
The Mr. Tan's, Mr. Low, Celine and Pn. Zulaikha tuition groups
KWN [Megan, Athia, Muni, Jean, Nisa]
The ex-schoolmates
The naughty boys[KV, SJ, KL, SK.. you know the rhythm]
The Family & ancestors who loved me best
Every human being who made me smile, laugh or cry
The schoolmates
the form 5 books :(

& Yoong Jian
hahahhahahahahahahaahahahahha


thank you those who wished me Merry Christmas.
do know that I send my best wishes to you, always.
have a rocking christmas!

jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle bells rock!

dinner at arisu, KD, tonight with the beloveds.

♥

Invasion AGAIN!

Anisa's in the house!

hahaha

lame

Someone forgot to log out, so that someone has to face the consequences .

*evil grin*

I gotta thank you for making my christmas eve full of laughter and smiles. :)

I had tons of fun, I'm sure Hash too. Pictures will be up soon. :)

For those who wants to watch what we did during our lil meeting, check out my facebook page. Enjoy your time at work. Or try too.

Alrite it's near to 2 a.m. Gnite all.

May the stars watch over you.

Merry Xmas,

Anisa

pre-merry christmas?

serenity and tranquility above picture ain't me. grabbed it from somewhere.

i wish to have a picture like that and below.

Hometown was great. As usual, stuffed with A LOT food.
Did a minor eye brow embroidery.
Received a Capo for my guitarrr!
:) thanks-you-know-who-you-are!
narrowed down to:
proper make-up set:concealer, liquid eye-liner, eye brow pencil
guitar tuner
more dresses!
new laptop
driving license
more happy friends.


vintage! i desire a picture like that:)

and i think i just did the most daring thing on Earth.
please don't kill me if you've found out :X
your WINNING IS definitely ONE OF MY CHRISTMAS WISH-COME-TRUE as well.
**fingers crossed**

I wish to see all your faces tomorrow.
I would really like all of you to meet Yoong J, the cousin who bullied me.
Just come please?